Blind

Even if I wait for you everyday and be the first person to give you a smile, you don't know..

I had my lunch with you and order you favorite food, you still don't know..

I'm standing in front of you but I'm invisible..

and your eyes look past me..

This once, just one, please look at me..

the more you feel, the more you feel..

I become more and more invisible..

at the end of my prayers...

I hope that you will find me so that I can have you in my arms..

In the cold rainy day I try to keep you warm but you don't know..

I try my best to hide my tears and smile for you but still, you didn't realize it at all..

I'm cold but I'm flowing towards you..

I hate myself for being too stiff..

My heart is cracked, cut and broken..

at the end of a rough day..

when I'm broken into pieces, would you able to see me?

You can't see me, so I love you like this..

even your fingerprints at the corner..

  I strongly engraved them to me..

You can't see, so you say that look pitch-black outside..

you endlessly look outside without knowing..

Are you gonna be like this forever..
can see anyone accept, me?

Jemputan ke skolah??

Hari ni..

cg liza dtg dgn megejut lg terkejut!

aku yg bru lepas mandi bertambah la kelam kabut!

dengan hanya pakai tuala di kepala, aku kluar jumpa cg liza..

salam peluk cium berlaku antara aku dgn cg..

maklum le, lame x jmpa..

aku tertanya-tanya gak, apa sbb cg dtg umah aku ni?

nk merisik ke??

cewah!

x leh, x leh..
hati I dh brpunya..

hehe..!

Back to the story..

rpenye, cg dtg nk bg surat jemputan..

jemputan ke mana??

aku igtkn jmputan ke kenduri kawen anak dia..

rpe2nye jemputan ke hari anugerah sekolah!

mcm x percaya je aku dpt anugerah PENCAPAIAN TERBAIK BAHASA MELAYU..

haha!

sungguh x ku jangka ini semua berlaku..

tapi, alhamdulillah..
mungkin rezeki ku begini..

alhamdulillah..

Permulaan yang baik..

Remember you..

We probably met only once..

you never talk to me from the start..

when you walk and past me..

and didn't turn back..

it was hard for me..

In the middle of night, a rain storm fell..

I can't slept and you're the one I had thought about..

like a habit, I hold my pen and wrote..

all about you, and try to slept again..

You're my everything..

an unforgettable person that I will longing for is leaving me..

I'm hurting from this separation, and I lack so much..

please for forgive me..

No matter how hard I try..

no matter how much I try to erase..

I still remember..

because you're the first boy I ever like..

I guess, I'm a bad girl..

like a fool, I let go of one boy..

when he was here, I didn't have the courage to make a move..

I was a coward..

I still wondering like this everyday..

I miss you so much..

but you'll never appear in front of me again..

Remember you..
that is what I'll always do..

Penantianku berakhir sudah..

Hari ini..

aku pergi ke sekolah unutk mengambil result..

nk tercabut gak jantung ni..

tp, dpt di kawal lg..

keputusan biase2 je, tapi ok la..

alhamdulillah, x de yg gagal..

aku dah buat yg terbaik..

yg penting subjek favorite aku dpt A+!

yg x ku sangka dpt apa yg aku dpt skarang adalah matematik..

aku x target langsung yg aku bleh dpt B+..

tp, alhamdulilah..

dh rezeki aku, trima je seadanya..

akaun?

lagi la..

x pernah mimpi pun bleh dpt C+..

alhamdulillah..

keseluruhannya aku agak puas hati walaupun keputusanku x sehebat rakan2 lain..

tipu la kalau aku kate aku x kesah langsung org dpt 7, 8, 9A++ tu..

aku pun ada rase sedih gak bila mengenagkn parents aku..

kesian diorang sbb ank dia ni x dpt bg keputusan yg diorang inginkn..

tp, nk wat mcm mane..?

benda dh lepas..

mungkin buat masa ni, ini je rezeki aku..

Lepas ni, aku nk buat yg terbaik!
aku nk pegang ijazah Bachelor of Business Administration..!

perancangan lepas ni, aku nk msk UITM..

ikut jejak ayah ke sana..

jd cikgu??

x terfikir sampai ke situ lg..

itu adalah pilihan aku yg terakhirrrrr sekali..

Nk tau x buah aty aku dpt brape??

7A!!!!!!

dahsyat kn?

7A...

tiba2 aku rase aku x layak jd kawan dia..

mcm mane??

aku rase segan plak nk ada pape connection lg dgn dia..

result aku dgn dia IBARAT LAGIT DGN BUMI..

7A dgn.......

no, no, no, NO!

tepon aku pun dh rosak..

mcm tau2 je ape yg akan berlaku..

Haih.. nasib badan..

Sepupu aku??

tok sak citer la ek?

diorg mmg genius sejak azali lg..

Dh!

barang yg lepas jgn dikenang..

let bygone be bygone..

skarang aku nk doa bnyk2..

smoga Allah permudahkn segala urusan aku lepas ni..

smoga aku dpt msk U dan ambik course yg aku inginkn..

Amin..

Aku redha dgn apa yg telah berlaku..
smoga jalan yg akan ku tuju nanti dipermudahkan oleh-Nya..
Amin..

To his girl..

He talks about you, about how great person you're..

and he smiles every time he do that..

just like how I was, when I saw him for the first time..

Even if he's always 10 minutes late, just smile and let it pass..

he doesn't even know how loyal you towards him, so he'll always curious about you like a fool..

Don't hold back the words 'I love you'..

be the first to apologize when you has a small fight with him..

and if by chance when he thinks of me and hurt..

just act like there's nothing happen even if you feel sad..

If sometimes he complains about stupid things..
always soothe him with a smile..
When he drop you off always turn around another time to look..
And if he tries to break up with you, be stubborn and hold on to him..

Why is it now that I've come to realize all these things?
Why is it I feel like I've done the best I could before?
For one day..
Just one day, I could trade place with you..
I'll show him all the love I couldn't before..

It's true I still love him..
and its true that I still wait for him like a fool..
Even though I think about the past in my heart everyday..
but it's he who left me and look elsewhere..

It's him that will be by your side..

Everything happen for a reason..
Maybe he's just not meant to be for me..

The person I love..

The image is unfamiliar..

because it's the first time I'm showing myself to you..

enduring it alone and holding back..

it seems to be an excuse that I'm waiting for you..

I hate to be burden to you, but I keep holding on you..

The person I love, please look at me..

my appearance may not be good, but my heart still the same..

even though I don't have the courage to face you..

please turn around and look at me.. 

It seems to be greedy that I want you to like me back..

I try to hide it, but it stays like that..

The person I'm waiting for, it's you!

I try so hard but I know it's just a dream..

I'm afraid that I'll regret it if I don't even try to approach you..

so I did it..

but why you still act like that??

Is it possible for me to be with you?